As a child I was hardly shown love and affection in the ways I believe I needed it most. My grandparents and my Mom do indeed love me, I know that now, but as a child their love was something so questionable to me and unfortunately that’s had a drastic affect on the way I am today.
I’ve come to realize that the love I was deprived of as a child, I may spend the rest of my life subconsciously looking to satisfy that vacant portion of my heart through the love of a significant other in efforts to get what was never given to me. I’ve already caught myself several times withholding anger towards my boyfriend at this problem’s discretion and it’s honestly so frustrating because I don’t do it intentionally, but I’m unable to control it.
I will do everything to make sure my child doesn’t grow up uncertain of my love for them because I’ve experienced the negative influences it can have on a person and the way they view themselves. It makes it so that self-love is one of the most difficult things to give to yourself.
I promise you my future child, Mommy’s gonna love you right.
A little backstory to this clip before you watch it:
Will Smith’s father abandoned him and his mother when he was a child, and when Will was finally getting into show business and making a name for himself, he tried to sneak his way back into his life like nothing happened. Will co-wrote this episode, and James Avery (Uncle Phil) said “this scene was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to shoot in my life. Every emotion, every word.. that was Will”
Will was actually supposed to play it off and then walk away, and there was originally an alternate scene that was supposed to happen, but he actually completely cut out what was supposed to be said, and did all of his own dialogue. The hug at the end of this scene is completely genuine, and this was a stepping stone in Will’s career where he started to take on the “do what feels, sounds, and looks right” approach to his acting.
This scene alone, means a lot, not only to Will, but to me as well, seeing as I don’t have the best relationship with my father either.
always worth a reblog.
My favorite fucking moment.
Never. The feelings you give me run too deep now and the strength of them is something that has taken control of my sanity. You will always remain a part of me, even if what we have were to expire, because I know I tattooed your name on my heart the moment I admitted to myself I love you.
Anonymous asked: Since you have expirience in this situation, what is your view on long distant relationships?
From personal experience, it’s difficult. You miss them. Terribly. Sometimes to the point where it physically hurts. The longing to be with them never stops. The wanting to feel their touch never subsides. You find that the sound of their voice, and their face seen through the computer screen, and the online messages become more of them to you then they themselves actually are. You’ll see couples holding hands and kissing and laughing together and you’ll feel envious of them for having something you lack, but want so much. It takes a lot. Trust, dedication, sacrifices, commitment, will power, and most importantly, strength. You’ll need to be strong. The times when you are weak is when the necessity of strength is remarkably amplified because when you are weak, your weaknesses hold the power to dominate your sense of purpose and vitality.
But, it’s taught me a lot. It’s taught me patience. It’s taught me that I have strength, even in times when I think I don’t. It’s taught me that giving up is easier than to keep fighting. It’s taught me the effectiveness of having a persevering fortitude. It gave me a profound will power to endure and withstand obstacles for the gain of what it is I want. And most importantly, it’s taught me that despite endeavors, if two people have a mutual longing to be with one another, the limitations are no longer limitations, but challenges waiting to be conquered.
I believe when you have strong enough feelings for someone and that person feels the same, there is only so few things that should stop you two from being with one another.
So my view on long distance relationships is it’s difficult, yes, but very much possible if both of you share the same desire to be with one another.
